Fuck Baby Steps

What is this constant need to take breaks or to ease into things? You know something is bad for you and causing you damage, then stop. If you know something is good for you, then start. Why take things easy? Why not make the decision right now? When I quit having sex, do you think […]

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Physical contact

I miss it. I miss it so much. I wouldn’t say every minute of every day. That’s a cliche and I get busy sometimes. But, in the moments when you are alone with your thoughts, your mind does drift back to that feeling. Not the sex. The physical contact. The reach out in the middle […]

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Procrastinating For a Reason

*Family don’t read I know, I know, it has been a long time since I have posted. I wasn’t being lazy. I was putting off writing because of guilt. I have decided to not give up porn. Ok, lets be real. I found that going a year without any sexual stimulation and going only from […]

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Dead Eyes

*This one might be a little TMI. Alright so for the sake of transparency, I broke down and watched porn. It has been over a month since stimulation has happened. I got drunk and I wanted to watch porn and holy shit did I miss it. The convenience, the availability, and the diversity is just […]

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Graceful as a Duck

I had a girl I was previously talking to hit me up. She needed help moving and offered me $50. I said yes knowing I wasn’t going to take her money. She is a hard-working mom and I have a soft spot for moms. The entire project took me 15 minutes. She just needed some […]

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This sucks

Saying no sucks. This is the first time I’ve turned down going out. Tonight would have been fun. It would have been very fun and flirty. She is beautiful. And I said no. She even cocked her head at me in a perplexed way. I don’t think she is used to being turned down. This […]

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First Rant of Many

I went on a mild rant recently that I would like to share. Sex is not the only aspect of my life that I am trying to accomplish (phrasing influenced by NYE post). A few of my goals this year are as follows: — Gain 25 lbs to reach a steady weight of 250 lbs […]

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