Dead Eyes

*This one might be a little TMI. Alright so for the sake of transparency, I broke down and watched porn. It has been over a month since stimulation has happened. I got drunk and I wanted to watch porn and holy shit did I miss it. The convenience, the availability, and the diversity is just […]

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Graceful as a Duck

I had a girl I was previously talking to hit me up. She needed help moving and offered me $50. I said yes knowing I wasn’t going to take her money. She is a hard-working mom and I have a soft spot for moms. The entire project took me 15 minutes. She just needed some […]

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This sucks

Saying no sucks. This is the first time I’ve turned down going out. Tonight would have been fun. It would have been very fun and flirty. She is beautiful. And I said no. She even cocked her head at me in a perplexed way. I don’t think she is used to being turned down. This […]

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First Rant of Many

I went on a mild rant recently that I would like to share. Sex is not the only aspect of my life that I am trying to accomplish (phrasing influenced by NYE post). A few of my goals this year are as follows: — Gain 25 lbs to reach a steady weight of 250 lbs […]

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A Very Simple Question

I am feeling under the weather but I have been reminded by a very special person that diligence is important with this project. That being said I will keep it short and to the point with more reflection to come within the next few days. This decision is obviously not easy. I am not enjoying […]

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Background Part 2

These friendships lasted for a while longer as I felt that being used was better than being alone. So, I endured and slowly drifted lower and lower. This lasted until I fell in love again, and this relationship went the same as my first love but far more intense. This girl was a mythical creature […]

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